I wrote this following a conversation on "What is success," with Meridian, my sister.
Belief is the basis of all our "failings," our point A's. Our ego is rooted in our beliefs. It is very limited and controlling. It keeps us in a state of self professed safety.
"Belief creates reality," is the basis of why someone is "successful" and another is not. Success is not something that can be measured, such as money in the bank, a car, a house, or vacations. Success is a state of being, like freedom, a point B, a treasure or diamond.
My relationship with my possessions affects my sense of safety. So when I feel overwhelmed with "my stuff," it still is affecting my sense of safety, only in the opposite sense. It makes me feel out of control and not safe. And this is only my relationship with my belief about my stuff. It is not reality. So what do I want?
Peace, safety, freedom...
Suffering is our point A , our current reality. It is not an inevitable part of our life. It is only present because of our belief in suffering, lack, loss. My work is so stressful, I am not good enough, I don't deserve a loving relationship with a man. They always leave me.
What am I willing to receive? What are my expectations around relationship? That it will fix me, make me happy, feel loved.
In reality, in creative magic, I don't need fixed. I am a treasure to behold. I am happy, filled with joy and peace. I feel loved by all, the universe, my family, my friends.
Victim is my biggest and strongest belief in my self, the dangerous other, the fox within my cells. It is eating me alive, from the inside out. It has taken control of me for lifetimes. I am obsessed with a strong sense of lack. I am fearful of my accomplishments, my belief in what I can't do and what I am capable of. My successes. How is that possible? It is and feels so pathetic. To be a creative, wonderful and loving human being so drowned in a mire of self pity and self loathing.
This has to stop.
You know what you need to do.
You know how to change these thoughts that surround and control you.
They are not a dangerous other.
They are you, they are your beliefs about yourself.
They, at this point weigh more than your creative self.
Stop now, no more focus or energy given to these beliefs about lack.
Power point your new self, your diamond, your treasure within.
No more victim, only rainbows.
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I keep trying to comment on this. I think it is great, Deb, how your thought process works as you "talk" to yourself - especially victim as the fox eating away at your cells from the inside out. Yes, it is crucial to acknowledge our victim and let go of it immediately. One of the differences in Real Magic practice is that we never process our victim. That gives it way too much power to hold us in the past where we spin...and spin...endlessly. Forget the addictive mental spin and become a rainbow!
ReplyDeleteI am so happy that this comment 'took' - don't know why the blog wouldn't let me comment! This is lovely, Deb, thank you.
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