Relationships

In working on the new book I keep running across things I think would be great for the blog. This one is especially pertinent because I have been meditating on this a lot in this New Year--how important relationships are and how much the way we treat others matters in the creation of a new world.

This is long but worth the read.

From the new book Radical Light:

"Take that feeling of being sick and hurt, abandoned. This is a feeling we have all had. You are programmed to believe that if you find the culprit, who to blame, you will feel better. Well, you won’t feel better if you focus on ‘blame the culprit.’ It doesn’t matter why you feel sick and hurt. Yes, isn’t that shocking? Your feelings aren’t what’s important here. Forget about why and let go of blame. Let go of it. Why is like because. Why and because keep you in process. “I feel sick and hurt because…” Stop right there. Because means you are looking for blame. Stop with ‘because’. Let go of ‘because’. And let go of ‘why’ and let go of your endless stories about who done you wrong. Why and because and who to blame keep you in the ego loop and you end the days of your life still playing loop-de-loop with your unconscious ego.

Stop; take a deep breath and say, “I feel sick and hurt.” And if you are continuing to blame someone, especially if it is someone you love, you will feel VERYsick and hurt because your pain is two-fold—you hurt yourself and you hurt them. “I feel sick and in pain—I hurt!” Period. Don’t process your pain! Do NOT process your pain. Give yourself the one thing you need if you are going to transmute “sick and hurt” into freedom. Give yourself a point A that you can polarize. How do you polarize it? Just say it “My point A is that I feel sick and hurt. Then carry it from there to find the opposite of “sick and hurt.” Find what you authentically want to create.

“I feel sick and hurt. This is not what I want.” Now you can go to Point B. And here you have to ask yourself what you would like to give to them? What intention will polarize point A? What kind of relationship with yourself would you like to create? Do you want a relationship with yourself that creates more pain, fear, damage, and anger; more toxic energy in the world? What can you create that would help you be strong and independent and blessed with discernment and compassion? Choose to bring the energy of healing, compassion, understanding, and blessing into your relationship with yourself. This is your magical point B.

Make this a mantra. “I choose to have a relationship with myself that has magic, healing, compassion, understanding, and blessing in it.” Are you willing to receive a wisdom self that is a treasure, that is a diamond? You will find that what comes to you in this relationship with yourself is whatever you are willing to receive. What are you willing to receive from life, from yourself? What do you want to be? What matters most to you? That’s what is going to show up in your relationships.

For example, “I choose to receive a relationship of health, love, strength, integrity, peace, compassion and blessing with myself, with other people, and with the world.” That’s a great all time mantra for everything under the sun. Create an all time relationship mantra with yourself, with other people, and with the world and say it every day until it becomes your first waking thought. Because you are in relationship with the world all the time and that’s where your true intentions are going to be most deeply felt. This is where your true Authentic Self is going to show up and be counted.

Student: And we shorten that by saying “I choose to be true to myself.”?...

Yes! Thank you! This is all part of the path of being true to yourself.

And this is very simple, basic, ordinary stuff. I’m not preaching at you because of some high level spiritual idea or ideal that I know and you don’t know. I’m talking about what I know. I know alchemy. I know how to transmute energy using only consciousness itself. And I know this because I have suffered for it. What does that mean? It means my basic nature is fierce, high-energy, protective, shy, quiet, loud and opinionated. I have been told that I am fierce because the nature of what I teach requires me to be fiercely focused on truth. But that is no excuse! I have hurt people. All kinds of people. But mostly I have hurt people I love and the remorse I felt when I examined my behavior and choices, when I brought it home, made me practice these practices with dedication once I learned them. And once I began teaching I practiced what I was preaching until I know it in my cells, in my atoms, it’s probably in my DNA—or maybe it always was.

And I still have to practice. The ego is so strong, so deeply entrenched in our constant daily collective consciousness—and we get tired and stressed and short-tempered—we hurt—and so, we have to be constant gardeners, digging up weeds and planting truth in ourselves, constant warriors fighting for truth in our deepest hearts. We are not perfect. We never know when we will be brought face to face with our deepest fear of truth. We have to fight for truth every moment of our lives. We have to struggle to make every moment of our lives a blessing. Then we will be true and authentic Creators. Then we will be true to ourselves."

This is my message in a bottle for the first month into the New Year. Thank you.

Restructuring the ego

I love this statement:

"the ego... will no longer fear truth." (from Nov. 5, 2009 at 4:46 P.M. by the teacher)

and this one:

"But the ego must be RE-STRUCTURED - it must change or we will not survive." (from Nov. 3, 2009 at 2:46 P.M. by the teacher)

If we are going to restructure our ego we must look directly at it. No fear, no squiggling (squirming or wiggling) around the issue. If we truly want to change we must not ignore truth. No apologies, no excuses, just a clear intention.

Look at our world, mired in self pity, war, fear, belief in dangerous others. Of course it won't survive this way. The momentum and polarities are only increasing and getting stronger. We must stand now in our truth. We will survive. We must teach each other about Grace, Empathy and Compassion. We must open our hearts to this truth. We must carry on!!

We must live our lives with impeccability.

To take another quote:

"Impeccability does not mean that you are always right, it means that you are always true."
(from Self Importance, Oct. 26, 2009 by the teacher)

Yes!!

Escalating energy

As the new year begins, I am struck by the feeling of energy building. In Sylvia's newsletter she talks about accelerated polarity and increasing unrest. Do you feel it? Certainly I have noticed my Point A's (fear, lack, self doubt) creeping in, but also I feel excitement, conviction and sense of responsibility to be a part of the creative process for a better planet. How wonderful that we have this RM community and the Hermetic teachings. Thank God and thank you Sylvia. There are many times I catch myself and say things like "Whoa, there was your ego." And I know I have work to do. But to be aware and to notice it and then choose something else, well, hey, I can do that. And so again I am grateful for another way of responding, reacting and being.

Because I feel that what we have been taught, what we have been learning in the Great Work, is so vital, I am really excited about the upcoming year and what may unfold for all of us. I am looking forward to learning and reconnecting with the group in April and thereafter as we stay constant and "keep on keeping on." I will also be holding a book study group In Portland starting later this month. So if you know of anyone local who may be interested, you can give them my contact info.

Blessings to all of you and Happy New Year!

Silence

I received an email with this question: "What is the single most important practice in Real Magic?" I went into a meditative space and as I observed myself giving myself space to receive an answer, I realized that I always went to Silence. When I truly desire to give Truth, I go to Silence. I would say, then, that the single most important practice in any way of life, not only in the Tao of Real Magic, is Silence.

Don't choose silence; just say the word. Don't choose love, don't choose wisdom - as soon as we choose it an idea of what love or wisdom or peace or freedom is, begins to churn in our interpretive mind. Choose to let go of the interpretive mind and its addiction to ideas. Say, then, "Silence".

In that Silence is the complete letting go of ideas about separation, being victim, being right, fearing to be wrong, the letting go of interpretation, the letting go of thought itself, the letting go of 'being'. Just say, "Silence". If you choose to let go or receive you are in the realm of ideas. Silence is the end of ideas. The blessed end of ideas. Be willing to have no ideas, no thing, no source, no truth, no me, no you... What happens in this space?

Love comes alive. Wisdom comes alive. What was there all the time hidden behind all the ideas of this or that or the one thing or the no thing and the looking for the meaning of this, that, and the other, is only the love, peace, and wisdom that is alive in that vast space of Silence that is truly you--where you truly live.

Have a beautiful Solstice, Christmas, New Year's celebration and a miraculous experience of all your days being bright and filled with the Silence of the Christ in 2010. Yes, that is an idea but it is my favorite idea and my goal as a Real Magic practitioner and teacher! God bless us every one!

You

I was just reading the intention for this blog again and it’s really quite beautiful.  Thank you.  I read it often and feel the connection.

What strikes me today about this introduction, is how much I don’t know about the other students in this community. There is a collective knowledge through experience here that is palpable and rare.

I want to know more about you - after all these years of study, after all of these power points, after all of the mantras, who have you become?  Are you inspired?  Are you at peace?  Are you indescribable?  Are you utterly unsure?  What is your soul’s desire? What is your continued resistance?

I would like to use you if you are willing.  Use your wisdom, use your insight - as a tool that continues to inspire, nudge and move me through my ego and deeper into truth and practice.  I will happily in turn, do the same.

“I want to be thoroughly used up when I die, for the harder I work the more I live. I rejoice in life for its own sake.”  - George Bernard Shaw

I wanted to write something from the new book and I began thinking about magic. That it is a word that has a lot of bad press yet it is such a creative beautiful work we do when we accomplish magical living. It has a bad press because it has been condemned by patriarchial thinking-- both superstitious definitions and intellectual definitions condemn magic as being both occult and female. Churches--Buddhist, Christian, Islamic-- condemn it and the practice of it.

To me it is a beautiful word and it implies something beautiful. It implies a beautiful relationship with Creation; it implies the conscious and wise transmutation of form. It implies miracles. I love living a magical existence, a miraculous existence. I would like to know your thoughts. I know that some of you resisted that word because of status pressure and a need for validation, for spiritual apporval from a larger audience. Did you ever feel that way? Do you still feel that way? What is your relationship with the word magic?

She who watches and she who is

Took a beautiful walk early this morning up through the hills just 10 minutes from my front door. It was cold, sunny, snowy and pleasantly vacant of other hikers. As I was walking I felt the silence, but also felt the distinct feeling that I was watching the silence and not living the silence. This feels like a consistently tricky area for me...so innately I slide into being a witness to my own life instead of being fully planted in it. I wonder how you dance in and out of presence?

Rainy Friday Morning

I think sometimes of thoughts I want to share but I'm driving or showering or walking in the woods. This time I was meditating - well, thinking a bit in between really excellent bits of focusing when I thought of a conversation I had with a client this morning where he said something about feeling angry at getting older. I found no connection.
Now I can change in a split second but in these moments for a while now I feel such acceptance that I couldn't connect with anger at that that simply is. I choose acceptance is one that I've noticed major resistance to at different times laughing when I realize that I LOVE living in acceptance. Little Bratly - otherwise known as my very own ego can make me forget some of the most obvious truths. I love how we don't know where and how the blessings from mantras will manifest in our lives.
So I'm really thankful that this blog is here and that I can feel a bit more connected with others practicing and learning and healing and growing and waking up.

Love~Aile